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bad news :(

i won't be able to go back to school on tuesday :(:( at least if i do, it'll be at 7pm EARLIEST, assuming we take only 30min for presentation prep and everybody comes on time :(:( daaammnn...

my dose of sweetness for the week is gone just like that :(:(:(

ohh but thursday is still on :) haha.. need to practice my skills and be super pro and impressive HAHAHAHA :P omg... lol yang please stop it haha! omgggg :) hahaha

i'm super grateful for the little things in life that brings me so much joy! haha.. they're something look forward to after a night of unpleasant dreams..

honestly, for the past week, there hasn't been one night that i haven't dreamt of him. but its because i've got SO much more to look forward to now that it doesn't affect me as much as it would have a month ago.... one episode stood out like a sore thumb and it felt so real.. we were hugging, and he was going for a kiss, but i stopped him said "if this is not real, i'm not going to". my mind was clear that this was only a dream, and even in dreams my mind controlled my emotions. (well done, mind!). poor psyche still has to suck it up and move on..

such is life. people come, people go... no point leaving space in your heart for someone who doesn't think you're worth the effort and who doesn't care. no point trying 24/7 to get someone to open up to you when they can't... they're inept in the emotional-social department.

haha hello? if i didn't freaking force you to go for arts camp, would you have the friends you have now? if i didn't organise odac dinners and force you to go for them, if i didn't suggest and help you PLAN to have bbq parties at your house, just so you will be willing to spend time with odac people (dont have to get out of the house).. would you have approached them on your own? i don't think so. because you view life in the mindset of a passive lazy ass, that people are not worth your effort to maintain the relationships that you have. you lose interest, plus there's no effort. i wish you all the best.

hahaaa thank goodness this blog has become long forgotten...