VINDICATED

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2011-11-17T17:09:00.002+08:00

have to say i'm distracted.. my mind is busy wandering around, i can't seem to get any work done...

i dunno.. what is this odd feeling.. a desire of sorts? a void? i dunno.... i'm just uncomfortable and extremely distracted.

i don't like this kind of silence. i can't wait 2 months.. what will happen after that?

haha

2011-10-16T10:30:00.003+08:00

bad news :(

i won't be able to go back to school on tuesday :(:( at least if i do, it'll be at 7pm EARLIEST, assuming we take only 30min for presentation prep and everybody comes on time :(:( daaammnn...

my dose of sweetness for the week is gone just like that :(:(:(

ohh but thursday is still on :) haha.. need to practice my skills and be super pro and impressive HAHAHAHA :P omg... lol yang please stop it haha! omgggg :) hahaha

i'm super grateful for the little things in life that brings me so much joy! haha.. they're something look forward to after a night of unpleasant dreams..

honestly, for the past week, there hasn't been one night that i haven't dreamt of him. but its because i've got SO much more to look forward to now that it doesn't affect me as much as it would have a month ago.... one episode stood out like a sore thumb and it felt so real.. we were hugging, and he was going for a kiss, but i stopped him said "if this is not real, i'm not going to". my mind was clear that this was only a dream, and even in dreams my mind controlled my emotions. (well done, mind!). poor psyche still has to suck it up and move on..

such is life. people come, people go... no point leaving space in your heart for someone who doesn't think you're worth the effort and who doesn't care. no point trying 24/7 to get someone to open up to you when they can't... they're inept in the emotional-social department.

haha hello? if i didn't freaking force you to go for arts camp, would you have the friends you have now? if i didn't organise odac dinners and force you to go for them, if i didn't suggest and help you PLAN to have bbq parties at your house, just so you will be willing to spend time with odac people (dont have to get out of the house).. would you have approached them on your own? i don't think so. because you view life in the mindset of a passive lazy ass, that people are not worth your effort to maintain the relationships that you have. you lose interest, plus there's no effort. i wish you all the best.

hahaaa thank goodness this blog has become long forgotten...

17 again

2011-10-12T00:56:00.004+08:00

ooohhh my goodness :) heee omg.. hahaha i feel like screaming out to the world

I LOVE TUESDAYS!!!!!

hahahaha heeee whooo!! i'm so happy hahahaha hahahaha ohhh goodnesss hahaha :):):) tuesdays rock my socks haha omg :):)

takes much courage.. lol.. but ohh the rewards... my tummy feels funny. hahaha <3

today, i've had the best tasting dark chocolate EVER. haha EVER EVER. heee.. melts my heart <3 i feel 17 again.

i can't stand myself, like SERIOUSLY.. what's wrong with you?? goodness gracious yang!! hahaha grow a sense of shame!! restraint yourself!!!! hold back omg you're so freaking obvious!! so shameless!! haha cannot cannot. must remain an eyecandy. AAAHHHH lol....

oohh but you're so mesmerising... my heart can't stop smiling when i see you :)

decisions.

2011-10-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

yes, yes i'd really like to :)

no, no cause its hard not to..

yes,

no,

yes,

no,

yes,

no,

yes,

no,

yes,

no,

yes.

i'll try-

butterflies, butterflies, we were meant to fly :)

2011-10-07T13:39:00.005+08:00

i'm still new to this scene.. its my first, and don't really know what happens.. i haven't found patterns and answers yet. how long should be set aside before i'm socially 'allowed' to love again? i used to exclaim "oh wow that was quick!" when somebody that has just recently been single gets together with somebody else just a month or two after. my presupposed concept was that there should be some time before the next, if not it says a lot about that individual and why they were out of the last relationship in the first place..

hmm i guess i just didn't understand then. haha, now i do.

some people just heal faster.. some people just make the decision not to waste time for now.. some respond by other means of destruction.. some seek another's company instantly... and there are those that mope and weep till their souls wither away.

i suppose my happiness gene does not allow me to see the world as miserable for very long...

let them nasty butterflies bring me towards the clouds! :)

oohhh i'm too obvious, can't stand myself. lol but i can't help it :P

oh be still, my heart!

2011-10-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

sigh..

'liquid paper'

2011-10-04T01:07:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really, truly, honestly, genuinely, forget what you said... naturally blanked it out/erased off my mind..

and things become comfortable and awesome :)

back to the past.

but returning to reality and out of the boundaries of my own perception, this does not dissolve the fact that i'm not being clear. this is exactly what will lead to a messy ending.

what to do?

bubble tea!!

2011-10-02T14:54:00.004+08:00

had a nice long chat with a friend who is far far away last night till early morning :) HTHT session lol... these two are gonna last :) i have a good feeling about it! haha.. they're kinda one of my only hopes that things do last and love does exist. haha i sound like some 40 year old virgin now yeah? :\

haha its nice to have someone miss you like that, i guess. and i can only guess right now.. haha that kind of feeling to me is long lost in the distant past. i yearn for that feeling of yearning for someone.. to have someone special to care about and whom i can be completely comfortable with... no inhibitions. someone i can be totally crazy with and just be myself. i had that once upon a weary time, but thats no more... sometimes i wonder if i'll ever be able to let anyone else in again. the risk is too high, and i don't have the energy to spend so frivolously anymore. i want to be alone, but yet i need company.. i want to be loved unconditionally and i want to love back with the same intensity.

how do you tell this to someone who is pretty much the opposite of what you want and need?

i can't even bear to read your messages anymore. please stop being so nice.. because i still feel like running far far away, and you will, at the end of the day, feel like you've been led on and have wasted your time on a lost cause. think of me as something unattainable, that way, you'll be able to stop treating me this way.

i wish you will chance upon this post and read it for yourself.. i can't bring myself to say it to you directly or even indirectly... things were great before, but it will never be the same again. i won't be able to behave like i did before what was said. i don't know what to do..

i can't wait for december :D lol so exciting... i've been looking around at things that i'd like to do there. (just realised how long i'm actually going to be away LOL. about time eh?) maybe it'll be like another india trip.. the first few days or so, i'll dread being away, but eventually, i wouldn't want to come back. there's really nothing holding me here, if not for uni and my bond, i'll probably be nestled in the mountains of the himalayas, hand-pumping water for shower and to wash my clothes, and teaching little Lamas english in the afternoons.. and i say this with all honesty and with certainty.

i'm craving bubble tea. haha

2011-10-02T02:55:00.004+08:00

i love lovey dovey korean dramas.

but that does not mean that i want my life to be like that.

do not view your life as a drama. because it will turn into one.

its all about perception.

its not so complicated. human beings are simple and easy to deal with.

simplify. simplify. simplify.

....

who am i kidding?

crazy.

2011-10-02T02:45:00.003+08:00

why am i prone to such things, you ask?

maybe i'm giving the wrong signals when i'm just being my friendly self.. should i change? i dunno.. i don't believe in changing myself, if its not for the better. will being less friendly make me a better person? but its essentially who i am! maybe its a matter of changing the way i express friendliness :\ but then it'll be a conscious effort on my part.. and i wouldn't be truly myself anymore!

WHY SO COMPLICATED???

i have decided

2011-10-01T01:55:00.004+08:00

i have fantastic friends that i love so so so so much <3 <3 what will i do without you guys, SERIOUSLY?? :):) amazing.. god-sent! :):) thanks alot alot, shu, for helping me book the plane/train tickets AND offering to get me a SIM card!! omg.. lol unbelievable.

i really need to dig out the thesaurus for more alternative words to describe my feelings of gratitude and joy! :P

time to look for the little mermaid :)

erm.. well.. i have decided... that there is nothing. i can't imagine it as of now....

haha maybe this is how he felt/feels. and i understand what he meant now.. even though it hurt to hear it then.. i think i feel the same way now.

i've come to accept my past relationship as a learning experience that i do not regret going through.. and through this past few years i have learnt ALOT about myself, about relationships and what i really want in a life partner.. i can't help but compare it to the past..... its just not the same. and the differences.... i don't have that extra oomph feeling, i guess. haha how to say.. lets just leave it as that...

maybe its time to start hinting more.. that what it was before and what it is now is all i want to be. in the gentlest way i know how... please let it be alright this time with this one... i really don't want to lose a friend because of such silly complications again.

focus on travel plans!!! :):)

can't wait to spend christmas with my london lovelies <3

I'm going to see the world!!! :))))

2011-09-30T01:41:00.004+08:00

hellooo haha :)

guess what?

I'M GOING TO SEE THE WORLD!!!!!! :D:D:D:D

omg freaking happy!! lol ..i still can't believe it. it hasn't sunken in yet. haha but i will when i start planning my itinerary. and when i finally settle my connecting flight! lol omg... a million thanks to my dear friend, ed. it wouldn't be possible without you. seriously, you're the best!! :):) OMG this is surreal.... in about 2 months time, i'll be off!! wow... just wow...

it'll be a planned, oraganised, reckless time of my life. hahaha i feel free to do what i want. no obligations to anyone.. i don't have to consider somebody else's feelings or be held back by anyone. this is LIFE as i depict it. just me against whatever comes my way! its going to be a great learning journey. time to find myself again :)

today has been simply marvelous!! :D:D seminar today was pretty alright :) and then jolene was around - she just came back from vietnam!! :) she's great to talk to :) lol KOREAN DRAMA!! omg.. lol :) and then lunch with jo, chris, huitze, hazel, eva, ritz and eric.. and jielong and a little bit of terrance. and siyuan and his funny reactions to girly things... omg lol they're so lively. :):) brightens anybody's day easily! i love thursdays... OH! and i met esther and huiyi by chance.. lunch/tea on tuesday! :):)

fantastic.... simply out of this world! i've ran out of words to say awessome.. lol, every other word feels overused. lol

WOW.. lol!!

nicole, shu, min... i'm coming!!!!! :):):)

:):):):)

tomorrow..... haha well..

i'll make up my mind tomorrow. come up with an (non)action plan? lol yeah. lets see how it goes..

maybe?

2011-09-28T23:42:00.005+08:00

maybe there's a reason why you're the only one who thinks i'm always so happy..

maybe its because i'm always happy..

when i'm around you.

with the passing of time..

2011-09-28T15:03:00.002+08:00

inspired by a friend i've misjuged some time ago (goodness, we're actually so much alike!)... i've decided to start blogging again.. maybe its a good place to set down all my thoughts without having the fear that a particular somebody will be reading it.. and if they do, well, i have nothing to hide. its just an outlet i guess.. i'll look back at this and smile one day, hopefully, as a better, happier person :) my heart is open again.

september has not been the best of months.. reading my last 2 post today, about a year on... haha.. well the feelings then are exactly the same as this september.. its time to stop this vicious cycle. i shouldn't have to convince myself that it staying in that relationship was the best anymore.. i guess i've just had enough too.. and i agree. it was over a year ago. i was just too stubborn to let go. but who can blame me for being a fighter?

its been 4weeks already since we've spoken.. and honestly, i don't feel terrible anymore.. things are seriously looking up :) i'm finally able to do things that i really love, without having to consider about someone else's feelings. OMG I'M GOING TO SEE THE WORLD THIS DECEMBER!! :):) i feel my time for being reckless and free is running out, and its NOW OR NEVER!! :) lol... i'm gonna book tickets this saturday! copenhagen and london. india is not fixed, i'm still trying to get to tenzin at the monastery.. and our no-no leh tenzin yangdhu has kindly offered to help me talk to the head monk if they don't reply soon :) he's amazing... omg i miss ladakh!! especially the people there.. tundup, our acho leh, chosgyan.... i will be back there soon, for sure!

right now?

well, my brother is baking another cheesecake for me.. he's just learned the existance of electrical appliances that can make his baking life that much easier, lol.. i suppose brothers are gifts for us to treasure.. they're always there, and always have your wellbeing in mind :) even if its just a craving for cheesecake! he's fantastic, and if you ever read this, bro, i'd like to say that you're the best :) thank you.

on a side note.. i don't know what i'm feeling right now.. like.. i'm seriously looking forward to this friday, i really truely am :) i can't wait to share cake with you by the riverside.. you've been an unbelievable gift to me these past 3 weeks or so.. haha, sometimes i wish you were him, and he was you.... why can't he see me through your eyes? but you're different :).. its been such a long time (maybe even never) that i didn't have to plan for something to happen.. when i wanted to spend time with someone, i always wondered if he really wants to hang out with me, or he's just going with the flow with no emotions. its different with you.. omg i think you're too nice! i'm glad you are, but i wish you weren't... it just confuses things. should i be feeling happy just yet? i mean its only been a month. and here you are.. i just don't know what i feel about this. my heart is happy, but confused and afraid and my head just thinks too much! haha i'm still messed up inside in this department.. hahaha sigh..

maybe i just need some time to be alone, single, and unbounded. that way i can only break my own heart. haha... silly words... i just hope i don't end up wasting your time.. but i've told you.. i can't promise you anything. but if you're going to try no matter what, i'm not going to stop you. i want to be good friends :)

just one question though.. where's the line between that and something more?

2010-09-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

haha HI SHUXIAN deaarr...

you're so funny :)

maybe its cause we're fated to be almost just like sisters,

even if we're busy with our own lives and dont get to talk as much,

fate still brings us back again somehow.

♥

2010-09-10T15:55:00.003+08:00

i'm back.

yes once again i'm feeling low.

No, this time is different. My heart has shattered into a million pieces. Its not whole and simply hurting.. its being smashed and stomped on by someone i thought i could give my everything to; my life, time, secrets, thoughts, feelings, my future.. yes i very strongly felt SAFE to give my ALL to this one person. and i'm feeling so cheated and stupid for doing so right now.

no girl should ever trust any guy to be true. its not a generalisation, its just pure facts.

i'm still fighting for what i thought was real.. i'm fighting with a wall, but do i care? no. it seems like a fruitless expenditure on my end, but why am i still doing so? because a huge part of me still believes in what we had. and that its not our fault entirely that you are feeling this way about us. we were happy, weren't we? until this past 2 weeks where you suddenly had alot of work to do with all the scheduling and all (which you didnt explain to me more than that because its complicated and you thought that i wouldn't understand anyway). This is my stand at least... but you're not reply my sms or picking up my calls. i feel really like, in YOUR words, "throwing a ball at the wall and having it bounce back".

you said the old you died long ago. and that the person that i fell in love with is now dead. I DONT BELIEVE THAT. my baby is still alive. he was alive the last weekend we met. if you tell me that all the joy you made me feel and that i saw in your face when you laughed was all the fake new daniel, than thank you for making me feel so fucking cheated of my feelings. i feel so naive for believing it. you know i will believe whatever you say. and you've used that against me to cheat on my feelings. omg how can i be so stupid. i feel like such a fool.

right now i hate you, but i know fundamentally that i still love you. the pain that you are putting me through is overwhelming and i cannot take it anymore. dont be surprised that if at the end of all this, i find some way to kill myself. this is not a suicide threat. but still, its exactly what i feel now. haha i now understand why some people that i once thought was stupid to end their own lives after a failed romance actually feels. its true that it appears that its better to end my own sufferings than to go on living. its really alot to take. too much to take.

you say that you're not running away.. i know thats what makes you tick. i learnt this from the last huge argument that we had last year. it was also about the same topic as we are dealing with now. its the exact phrasing of the words that make you tick. i like that i know that.

i wish you would just make up your mind as soon as possible. because if your choice is to stay and work it out, we can get out of misery quickly and get back to our happy state. but if you choose to leave and run away from us, then i wish that you'll do it quick too. so that i can get over you and start a new life with a new light. also, i wish that you would not do it over an sms. i wish you will come to me and tell me that you dont love me anymore face to face. i hope that you're not the coward. my baby isn't a coward. hmmm but he died, remember?

at times, this past week.. i felt that i should just end this myself. hey, if this guy is having doubts about what we have, whats the point of fighting so hard? i have exams next week and i'm brooding over this. whats the point right? then on the other hand, what we have is too precious to give up so easily. its a dilemma all over again. a dual between my loving side and my strong side.

i think what i will do now is to keep fighting. until i can fight no more.

:)

2010-06-02T15:34:00.003+08:00

hello blog.

haha life has been pretty awsome :)

i'm sorry for treating you like that.. haha i only come when i'm down and depressed most of the time.. yeah i come when i'm lonely and need someone to talk to.

but not today!

haha i'm happy :)

while printing my hope dress pattern.. haha how ironic.

2010-05-10T14:51:00.004+08:00

its nice to have something to come back to and spill my thoughts out :) thanks bloggie

haha its starting to look like i'm a super emo person. lol... and everything in my life seems to be in a downcast mode. haha.. i dunno.... i'm just.. i dont know. a little lost right now.

honestly, i dont want to lose what i have with you. its been amazing most of the time.. but its those times that are not that make me doubt that you really love me.

maybe i'm just thinking too much..

but then again.. there must be a reason why i'm actaually feeling like this right? i'm not receiving enough back... haha and its looking like a disappointing emotional investment. should i just drop this share and buy another?

i dont think you realise what i've been trying to tell you. i need attention. i need love and concern- lots of it. i've told you from the beginning about my needs, so its not like i'm getting increasingly demanding, or that you went into this blind.......

i used to know what to do.. me and my ideas to fix things, fix everything, no problem. but now i dont anymore. because even if i had an idea.. you dont seem to want to do it. yes, you used to be willing to do things for me, just to make me happy. not anymore.. now it seems like you're using army as a shield or excuse, saying its army making you tired, stressed, taking up all your time.

i dont believe in having no opportunities. there will always be one. and its up to the person to seize hold of it. if you really wanted something, i'm sure you wouldnt mind sleeping an hour less, turning around and taking the bus back to where you came from just to give someone a hug she needs so badly sometimes. there's always the opportunity... but its all up to you to make it into something great.

yeah i used to know what to do.. but without your willingness to do anything.. my ideas will just be another evidence for me expecting too much and forcing you to do something you dont want to.

so what now?

just yesterday... when you had the opportunity to meet up with me, you chose not to.. and then told me you have no opportunity... and went on to say that you're stressed.

i'm sorry but i dont see the link. its just pointing to how you dont want to meet me at all, right?

ok lets not think too much yang. boys are confusing.

i want a man.

i like wednesdays

2010-05-09T11:52:00.002+08:00

i like wednesdays.

makes me feel that all hope is not lost, when all hopes are lost.

makes me feel like i dont care... and people expect you to do so.

makes me feel that i am not alone.. even in a room full of almost-strangers.

makes me feel like i'm wanted by someone.. even though it may be superficial.

makes me

feel

no expectations

2010-05-08T18:08:00.002+08:00

haha.. i'm getting a hang of this not expecting anything concept :)

its been a day of no expectations and i feel pretty alright! lol..

the plan is to not force anyone to do anything. everything will be on their own accord.. i'm giving up on trying already. it seems like every time i want something, and someone can't deliver, i can't help but get angry or pissed off.. which makes the other person angry and pissed off.. haha and everyone is unhappy! yeah. no point forcing people to do what they dont want to or can't in the first place.

so far so good, yang!

maybe i this is the start to becoming independent again :) me and my own person myself!

sounds fantastic.

self talk leads to great revelations.

2010-05-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

sorry baby, i only run back to you when i'm feeling needy.. lol but i know you wouldn't mind.

if only i was that easy to satisfy.. but if you can have one person, and ONE person ONLY in your whole entire short lifespan..... don't you expect the very best?

yeah but its so unfair to the other person.

haha then again, both sides of the argument seems strong. HUGE debate in my head all the time. its giving me a headache.

at this point of time, i really dunno what to do anymore. i dont want to be a selfish person, but i have my needs as well. and currently, they are not being met.

(its gonna be a ranting page. just whatever comes to mind.)

haha there's too much going on, but nothing at the same time.

i'm gonna swear to myself, not to expect too much from anyone anymore... you'll only get disappointed. haha i'm saying this yet again.... so its not a one-off thing.

yang, you really expect too much of people. you're thinking too highly of people to be capable of delivering.

NO, you're thinking too highly of people to WANT to deliver.

have i ever mentioned that i feel as if i'm giving alot of myself away, and not receiving much back? fuck whoever said that love is meant to be selfless and free.. it doesnt work that way if you're a human being with feelings. if i'm giving myself away bit by bit, and not having that empty space filled or replaced by something... then i'll be like a statue made out of sand, being eaten up by the wind gradually as the days go by, until that fateful day when i will be no more. No way am i going to do that to myself.

my dear friend told me yesterday that she's gonna totally give up of this guy. sure, he totally fits her type.. just that he doesnt pay enough attention to her (not much at all, in my opinion). haha i told her that i'm totally in support of her decision.

if i guy doesnt love you like you love him.... its not balanced. and one day you'll just be left sitting at a corner constantly checking your phone (with no replies) and wondering WHY are you still in this mess? you deserve more, girl! i'm sure there is someone out there who is able to love you more.

haai.. but i'm in a dilemma.

i feel like i've given too much of myself to the wind, and nobody is patching back my lost limbs.. but then i'm too comfortable at where i am that if it wasn't to be, i dunno what i'd do.

i've told you too many secrets. OMG.. and you didnt even KEEP them for me!!! omg.. OOHH my GOD! omg..

SHIT. what the hell am i doing then?? OMGGG i'm such a loser. i just realised.

haha i should have typed all my thoughts out way earlier...... omg shit.

you dont love me enough and you share my secrets with others...omg

what am i to do now.

we're all dying

2010-04-29T22:24:00.003+08:00

lol i've always wanted to take a short run to sunset way to have ice cream. LOL doesn't sound right yeah? like.. RUN.. then eat ice cream? and then RUN back? hahahhaha

well i did that today!!

hahhaaa went to dan's camp omg lol its so freaking near actually.. maximum 3.5 km away.

ok on to more important things: PLEASE SIGN THIS PETITION.

i doubt anyone will see this here, but i will try anyway!! SAVE THE RAINFOREST!!!

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/petition/312282551
http://apps.facebook.com/petitions/view?pid=312282551

yes. ok i think we're both dying. but trying to live. nothing much to say now..

break!

2010-04-28T23:25:00.001+08:00

taking a break from exams.

lol. tomorrow is force nicole to memorise psych stuff and take pictures day!

with my nooby camera.

which reminds me, i have to find it first :P

2010-04-27T00:11:00.003+08:00

i just love wedding photos..

using the ironing board as a table... haha i'm desperate!

2010-04-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

haha i'm less emo now. lol.

my baby always makes it better with a call somehow :):)

and the paper today was like whatever. lol hopefully i can s/u it!! (omg all i'm asking for is a C!!)

thank goodness chris and i are studying in school tomorrow. i seriously cannot get anything done at home. i'm using the ironing board as a table now for goodness sake! LOL.... maybe there wont be so many people cause everyone is having exams? lol.. lets just hope.

do you know the chinatown fire was started by a storeroom full of sex toys? lol joke of the day..

i'mma happy girl.

need to start running everyday now. getting exam fat.

....

2010-04-26T11:22:00.003+08:00

i really should be studying right now. science exam is in 5 hours. and i'm totally not prepared. haha i'm gonna s/u it anyway, but i still need to hit a minimum C+ to do so yes? HAI... mmm, i'm gonna s/u it.

i swear i'll start studying it soon. right after this.

i just want to talk to somebody... haha feeling like such a emo kid right now..

when i look at the happy pictures of beautiful couples on facebook, and read about their sharing of how much they're in love on their blogs... how i wish i can start over again and feel that initial rush. its right at the start that guys actually take the effort to do things just to please you and get your attention- cause you're still that new, intriguing, interesting play-thing in their life. they take note of what you say, do cute and creative things like write little notes to you on paper napkins.. yeah... they take time and effort just to make you happy, to show you that they 'love you'.

over time, when the bubbles in the bathtub are gone, your skin gets wrinkly and all you're left is the cold cold water. people get tired. your one-sided relationship drains you out emotionally. now when he gets you, he forgets you, and you start to feel that you're the one thats foolishly giving.

yes, we should all give freely without conditions, but people have limits. and when its not reciprocal, you're left feeling like a street beggar, hoping for morsels of food.

HAI.. whatever yeah? sometimes its good, sometimes its bad.. just my bad luck i guess

wow, there's a title thing. lol i forgot! can i not title it? i can't think of anything right now.

2010-04-25T23:19:00.006+08:00

hmmm i think the above picture collage needs a revamp! (after exams, of course)

i'm comforted by the fact that nobody comes visit this blog anymore. haha after such a long hiatus, its assumed that i've abandoned it already right? lol so wrong..

exams tomorrow. it started yesterday with lit.. which was not fantastic, but i'm not dead for that particular paper (omg i hope!) and tomorrow is science.. followed by 2 papers in one day on wed. i'm so glad there's a break in between weds and dev psych paper. seriously, i predict i'm gonna feel so saturated by then. i shouldn't go swimming then right? lol.. i'll bloat up more than i am now!!

speaking of which, when exams comes, so does the cravings for random junk food. haha stupid cheetos, 160 calories for every 21 sticks. like major fat intake hello brain!! why are you craving it??

according to health psych, there are a few reasons as to people's food choices.

accessibility

exposure

learning (modeling)

in this case of cheetos and yang's eating habits, it would be attributed to ALL 3 reasons stated in health psych. it was firstly exposed to me by dear daniel, as i havent tried it before. then came modeling after people like daniel to eat junk food. and then came accessibility. because it was sitting rrriiiiggghht next to me, perfectly within reach.

thank you health psych. i love you.

haha omg you totally know when one is having exams. hahahaha the person will try to integrate all sorts of facts tested for exams into every day encounters! case closed.

in the security of knowing that nobody reads this anymore.. i'll say honestly that i've been unsatisfied with many things in my life lately. maybe i've been expecting too much.. but then i'm told not to pull down my expectations to a lower level. but it makes sense right? when something is not up to expectations, and you dont want to loose complete faith in that something/completely remove that something from your life/you dont want to feel sad and UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED ALL THE FREAKING TIME, the only practical thing you can do is to lower your own expectations. Right?

right.

there is no other way.

and of course at the same time, i must learn to be more understanding. yes, i tend to jump to conclusions, but i'm taking the effort not to do so, and to think and let time pass a little before i say anything. but at the end of the day, if you walk into crystal jade expecting the spicy beef noodle to be fantastic, but it falls short of your expectations.. you have 2 options; completely abandon the thought of eating beef noodles there ever again, or lower your expectations and try to enjoy it in a new light.

and no, you can't totally ignore the beef noodle in life and order another dish. it just doesnt work that way.

i get so tired of all these sometimes, and i wish i can stop dreaming about the IDEAL and accept the bleak reality. be happy with what i have. but i can't live like that. if i'm only to choose one particular food to eat for the rest of my life, its got to be the best. the very best. the very very very best.

haha i use to spend so much time blogging in the past. how i miss it. blog, you hear me? i miss you!!

maybe it partially cause people dont listen anymore.

Vladimir: To have lived is not enough for them.

Estragon: They have to talk about it.

how true. what will humans be if we dont express ourselves to people who listen? and sadly yes, not many people do take the effort to listen. they may be responding, hearing, but not listening. and many a time when i speak, its like i'm taking up their time and disturbing them. wasting their time when they could be doing something they really like and enjoy.

no, they dont enjoy listening to you. there are far better things to do.

i'm comforted for the gift of friends whose friendship lasts even though we're so far apart physically. KOF forever. (HYPE can come later lol)

i've got so many things to say and update, but thats about all right now..

this place seriously needs a makeover.....

revival? maybe..

2010-04-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

from my feel-good website..

http://www.oncewed.com/

maybe i should start blogging again.

it was once a good outlet of sorts for me.

maybe in this time of exams and stress, it might be of use again

haha maybe.

i miss my baby.

wonderfully tired again :)

2009-07-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

i love this feeling

being wonderfully tired again.

feeling that i belong somewhere and that there's something to look forward to tomorrow :)

its funny, this random event, when jerome smsed.. he was like checking up on dan and i. to see if we're both doing fine :) thats very sweet of you jerome...

since the past entry, so much has happened

arts camp!!!
dorville left
sam left
psych camp
OG outings
watched transformers 3 times over
daniel's army family day.. thanks hongtaa :)
mr lim's birthday
pre-camp
green hse chalet
HARRY POTTER!! omg we just watched it together and its like really good in my opinion, cause i actually understood the entire thing!! hahaha :)

yeah and like tomorrow is amazing too

i cant wait to start school, yet i'm dreading the potential stress

daniel i want to hug you.

you always make my day somehow :)

happy 20th b'day yan! ....... cya soon dorville...

2009-06-25T00:13:00.007+08:00

yanny just turned 20 yesterday!! 23 june.. yeah.. well, the birthday hype in the family sort of died down after we all passed a certain age. i suppose it gets really boring to celebrate at least 4 times a year... having 4 cakes... you know, especially when our birthdays comes in pairs (yan & peng - june, lin and i - oct/nov)

so yes.. we went out for dinner!! lol.. BUFFET dinner to be exact, at sakura, opposite john little/near cine.. its about 26+ per person? so for the 5 of us, plus GST, it amounted to about $139! lol.. expensive, but its like for an occasion, so i suppose a rare, nice dinner out together is alright once in a while.

to be honest, its not the best buffet i ever had.. not that i've been to alot.. well, the trays go empty often... they look empty most of the time.. like SPARSE.. and the variety is not fantastic, and some times i dont feel like eating whatever is offered. just not extremely appetising.. though i must say, their dory fish is fresh, light and palatable... quite pleasant :) OH! their truffles is REALLY nice.. lin kept going back for more! lol.. and they had quite an interesting range of ice cream : ) with rainbow sprinkles! hahaha..

i suppose i'm more of the dessert person, and i totally approve of their dessert line! they have nyonya kuehs and desserts too! thats pretty nice :) i like..

the people didnt allow photography of the food display there.. and THE ONLY CAMERA WE HAD WAS SCREWING UP *hint hint*, so we only took a few pics..

the buffet line is behind...

lemonade..blackcurrent..
peach tea, ice lemon tea, green tea, all the F&N stuff.. you name it!

take 1: i blocked peng's face.

take 2: yan poked her fork with cake in our pic!

...

well there's no take 3! lol..

yan and mummy

lin's face.

erm yeah.. see what i mean by sparse?

YUMMY!! the truffle was gone before this picture was even taken! lol..

thats us :)

yup! well.. dorville is on the plane now to aussie land.. we sent her off just now. its pretty sad that most of the guys are in army and they couldnt make it to send dorville off :( well.. the pillow with everyone's contribution really looks good!! lol.. i spent the whole day just touching up! haha..

hi dorville, if you read this, have fun over there.. and i know you'll totally enjoy studying now! so much so its not going to be called studying, you're going to pursue your interests!! so lucky.. take care of yourself k? and we'll see you back in feb!!

well its been a month already.. since i last updated. and.. everything is alright :) the kiam chye soup today that mummy made doesnt taste like what i'm used to.. its far from how mama makes it... oh well.......

anyways, i've started blogging again because this can be a means of communication with you and because you asked me to :) but i dont have a camera to take down my life out here to show you dear!! can i borrow your's please? this blog has been gloomy for too long now..... it needs some life back, some colour!

k i need to go offline and get ready for tomorrow... gotta wake up super early to go for my medical checkup!! lol.. meeting jolene at the bus stop so we can go there together, and get it over and done with!

and.. maybe i'll get my PDL next week, or tomorrow! haha, i duno. then i can start cheonging my driving!! if i go by school, i can get a test date earlier.

RAAARRrrrr i miss you dan..

yang owns a salad spinner :D

to be read again next may 20

2009-05-26T03:06:00.003+08:00

the past week had been, by far, the worst tornado i've ever been through.

everything squeesed into one short week.

future yang reading this, remember this week. because it made you stronger, reminded you of the value of life and the people that are part of it, it made you realise that a moment of slack can have huge consequences.

thank you for every memory. there's no one else like you..

i'm sorry for that one empty promise. i can never make it up now.. if only i had put in more effort. now all i can do is regret and hate myself for it. and also about that one wednesday night. its unforgivable and this regret will always cling onto my thoughts.

so many if onlys.

i hate it that i cant do anything about it now.

its been a week already... 7 days... nobody should have to go through this, but everybody will.

thank you shu, ed, py, min and dan.. for being there when i'm most shattered.

the earth will still spin, and life will have to go on..

i love you mama.

Dear Cosmos

2009-05-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

i've been looking through my old entries... some on this blog, and some from the other older blog that saw me through most of my best years..

what i came out of that little reflection of my past was that.. i sort of miss it.

it was so exciting, so thrilling.. so many things to expect and anticipate.. so many unknowns waiting to be found out.. my heart went through trials and tribulations.. so many people came and left.. there was so much to think about.. most of them happy, and i was for most of the time, very very wonderfully tired. i loved it.

right now?

i'm just tired. for no odd reason or whatsoever. i need more in my life right now. i want more to look forward to.

i suppose my priorities have changed and my preferece for unpredictability is slowly turning into a yearn for some stability in my life.. at least for some aspects of it. of which little was granted. but then again, i miss the excitement! sometimes i feel that my life is not as colourful as it can be at this current moment. i'm totally NOT living life to the absolute MAX; something i believed in all these time. i'm not who i want to be right now.

there's so many things i dont like happening around me, things that i cannot control or change.. and the consequences of these happenings too, have gotten me worried scared. i need to feel that i can do something about this, and actually DO something about it. i need to know that i can change things, and that i'm not alone in this pursuit and that you'll be there to actively help me and not leave things idle and simply shrug it off as something i cannot do anyting about but just have to get used to.....

i need some solid assurance. i've seen lots of effort, and i appreciate it alot. it calms me temporarily.. but my jitters dont seem to disspipate.

in the mean time i'm trying to save myself from falling into the pits of depression. i've been tring to get something to occupy my free floating mind from wandering too far off from sanity. hopefully the cosmos will throw me a lifeline and a chocolate energy bar, cause i can't live like this any longer.

all you need is love

2009-05-18T00:15:00.023+08:00

yeah. 'wth?' that was what i thought when shu and ed first mentioned it to me. it did take some time for me to decide that i'm actually going, though right from the start i sort of knew i'd attend it anyhow, just cause the peeps were going and i really wanted to see whats going on.

see, my dear friend ed, is not the typical girl you'd encounter everyday. she accepts, but is not... and sometimes she raves about it... and gets caught in it herself.. (well honestly, ed i dont know what you are. haha. doesnt matter anyway, even though you irritate me sometimes, i still love you very much.) she's pretty interested in going and supports the movement, plus shu was going, so i figured..""why not".

"i'll come and i'll hold my boyfriend's hand"

it took a bit more effort than usual to persuade dan to come along with me. he's usually very giving and agreeable with me. such a nice boy. initially he asked " arent you a homophobe?" and i was like.. "sort of.. but.." and he agreed to go with me. but then the day before he was quite unwilling, though not unwilling enough to disagree with me :)

i chose not to wear pink. i wore red. see, red is not pink, but its a relative.. so i'm giving a statement that says i'm not full on YEAH! but i'm sorta ok with it.. (dan claims he doesnt have a pink shirt- you liar! i know you do!) well if it makes a difference, i did tie my hair with a pink rubber band instead of the orange one i had on earlier.. haha

right. so came the event. well i did feel a little awkward. ok no, i felt really out of place, but after spotting shu's face in the crowd, BOY was i relieved... haha. new friends kelly and rachel! hello hello.. everyone was enjoying the happy atmosphere :) those male pussycat dolls can sure move! and the bangra (whatever was seen through the forest of people) was quite facinating...

as i held dan's hand, everyone formed the pink dot that represented acceptance, love, freedom to express themselves, understanding.... and everything that the LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender) society needs here in our little red dot. it was really quite something to see so many people in our rather rigid society showing up to help voice this cause :)

i've decided that... i still feel a tad uncomfortable with it, but as long as this form of love is not directed towards me at the end of the day, i suppose its ok for people to express their love, no matter the nature of the love given or who its given to... its LOVE after all, and everyone deserves to give and recieve this precious gift. as long as no harm is done in the process, i suppose it is alright.

thanks dan, for coming with me :) i love you.

I love kids

2009-05-14T22:10:00.004+08:00

busy busy busy!

2009-05-11T12:06:00.002+08:00

i do not have nothing to do next week

what i have planned for myself is to do nothing.

doing nothing is doing something, just phrased in a different way-

LAZING AROUND.

yes. THATS doing something.

person A: "hi yang, what are you doing?"
yang : "i'm lazing around."

so if anybody needs to disturb me next week, you can...

i'll just be very busy.

very busy lazing around.

ZOO with KOF

2009-05-07T21:49:00.002+08:00

ZOO WITH KOF.

I ❤ KOF.

i ❤ asian small clawed otters.

i ❤ polar bears. (and the music at their exhibit :P)

i ❤ the swings at kidzworld- standing up is serious fun.

i ❤ KIDZWORLD!!!!!

i ❤ taylor swift's you belong with me under huimin's influence

i ❤ squirrel monkeys

i ❤ chicken rice from seah street.. if only i wasn't so bloated

i ❤ the jelly but not the drink

i ❤ pilow talk at 3am

i ❤ sleepovers

i ❤ KOF

friendly people

2009-04-28T18:03:00.002+08:00

omgg....

i just came back from the interview.. they were freak friendly!!!

3 school principals, 1 educational psycologist, 1 scholarship applications guy

AHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

i sorta forgot all the questions they asked already. omg..

blank out now!!

shu says friendly=good? AHHHhh i hope so..

WHOO!!

2009-04-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

it was supposed to be another boring day.. and the only part worth looking forward to was the evening...

then so many things happened!! lol

to sum it up: MOE, dan's SMU, innotrek, job offer which i declined, job opportunity with peiyi. bubble tea, spontaneous trip with kof!!

lol. and omg.. 5 more days, people!!!!!! haha i totally cant wait.

i gotta note all of them down man!!

things are looking up!

i simply love hanging out with kof. complete comfort zone man.

i love you guys.. :):):)

little pieces make up a whole

2009-04-22T23:48:00.002+08:00

whoa... today was.. just lots of little things that make up today.

firstly, i had to deal with quite a bit Q stuff with shu.. brings me much goosebumps. yeah even now..

and that email and thing that made me feel quite uncomfortable.. i just ignored it.

then came the kids that dont seem to care about their lives. they have O levels at the end of this year and they are still behaving like that, its really saddening to see. and i feel as if i dont have the power to change this because i'm only there for such a short period of time. its not enough to make much of a difference see, and i feel abit useless there. i just got a little pissed off to the point i dont care anymore. yes. i dont care anymore.

ok.. haha, the chocolate truffle cake thing was just simply delectable. its a cake version of Royce chocolates, so you can totally imagine how rich and creamy it is. crazy i tell you. if the guy comes this friday again, i'm totally going to find a way to get it for dan!

then came more people that dont care about their lives, so i cant be bothered

followed by the indecision to talk to the kids from council

yeah and i came home and just felt so tired, i slept pass 7

then went for a walk to relax a little, and it was where i had to try to draw a clear line on where this stands.

dan called today!! haaha thats always the highlight of the day :)

well anyway, this sunday is off. i'm a little disappointed, but my priorities are crystal clear. your word over everything :)

thank goodness for this friday with kof :)

the old man

2009-04-19T20:41:00.003+08:00

its the face that reminds you that time has passed
greying hair that had decreased
in numbers, sunspots and blemishes..
the load he carried upon his back is
showing below his eyes.

his face seemed to have shrunken aback...
leaving his eyes protruding,
a result of seeing too much of the world?

the anticipation to this point was nil,
if not stained with dispising reluctance to go.
but the well-tested bait of
dough was tempting. effective.

fortunate to have a companion, to take
the stress of attention off myself,
the unknown laid before us.

a gorge not visited for 3 years,
has finally presented itself.

tread slowly and be wary, for the risk
of losing the golden goose has a
consequence too high.

with hatred, confusion, unwillingness
and sadly pity..
i faced this stranger i call.......

resuscitating you, blog!

2009-04-18T23:09:00.004+08:00

its been a while since words appeared here in longer paragraphs/sentences. lol.. yea i've been either busy or lazy :P

ok.. mostly lazy. and there isn't much that i want to tell the general everyone about anyway.

it'll just bore you to death. seriously. haha.

well i'm doing relief work on monday at stc! nicole will be with me for 2 days.. and we'll be on our own for a day each.

i cant say i'm totally, completely thrilled to be back in stc.. partially cause the stories i've heard about the......state... that its in now. haha. canteen food is one of the main reasons for the missing enthusiasm. and the other? council. but thats a story for another day..

i'm just glad i've got something to keep me busy for awhile. plus, i'll get to see shu for the 3 days there! haha its always a joy to have her around :)

OH on friday aka yesterday, when shu and i were having lunch, i got called for smu interview!! lol they say ive been shortlisted for the business school and there'll be an interview on sat

yeah so its all exciting.. and today was a little nerve wrecking. partially cause i havent written an essay or done a compre in like forever, and partially cause i felt kinda under dressed (hey they said 'smart casual' right?) lol

well we'll get to know if we're the 700 selected out ofthe 1500 some time mid may? i dunno.. its out of my hands now

i miss having camps. haha.. kinda miss the rush of every thing (sometimes how slow things go) and the people i worked with for the past few camps. its all good man.. i only know the next one under azad is next month. can't wait!!

i just dont like taking cold showers at midnight.. thats the only part of the camp i dont agree with!!!! hahaha

can't wait for this friday too... sleepover!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... missing you cute one!

its all down on paper, dont you worry. i wont forget like that :)

countdown: 11days!

an almost mirror image

2009-04-16T00:59:00.002+08:00

you know.. i was just missing the boy, and so i looked through some of our pictures and i realised...

i just realised how similar we looked,

especially when we smile...

2009-04-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

;_;

101th post

2009-03-17T23:17:00.003+08:00

the 101th post here

cherating cherating cherating

i'll see you soon

doesnt matter that its not tomorrow

honey and lemons

i just want to be with you always

Ps. Happy 17th :)

things ive owed

2009-03-17T01:56:00.004+08:00

PICTURES

Second Valentines

2009-02-15T23:05:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentines Day people :)

thank goodness the 2 of us view such holidays as a piece of commercialised crap.

but no harm making it an excuse to shower the other with much material affection, something my logical and practical brain needs to allow my hands to let go of some hard earned dough.
(yes, brain, you get in the way sometimes)

a nice hand made card would have been the most perfect gift of all... though even if there were none, thats ok too :) cause just being able to have your hand so firmly holding mine as we cross the road says alot already

next time, we'll make reservations

roses die, teddy bears get neglected and chocolates get eaten or grow mouldy... but some things will never change.

Love is 2 people comfortable enough to lie completely naked in each other's arms, having a heart to heart conversation that no other pair of ears will hear and after, feeling totally relaxed, fall asleep. The Trust needed is immense. And it is here that things can flow honestly, purely, away from plastic reality.

i'm sorry i ate your carrot cake chocolate. hee

now i'm a lonely soul without a camera... and all the pictures i've taken in it.

waiting for friday to come. dreading the part inbetween.

manicure

2009-02-01T21:39:00.003+08:00

lol yeah.. just though i'd post this up. my first manicure!! haha like a month ago or something..

i forgot to take the camera from daniel so the boy escaped from having incriminating evidence of ever having had a manicure with me. hmph.

you got away this time.....

anyway, he coming with me was reward for not biting my nails. haha. quite worth the self restraint, really. thanks dan :)

i havent bitten my nails since that stressful day at IMM giant! hahaha

we had a stayover at dan's house yesterday.. will post up the pictures when i do get them!

Oooooo kannan is coming back this friday!!

singapore flyer, here we come..

2009-01-28T21:36:00.001+08:00

growing old happily

four views

2009-01-21T22:09:00.002+08:00

one year one month one day

to the dodgy end

rochor bean curd. yum

i'd rather get cancer.

i'm loving it

2009-01-17T21:43:00.005+08:00

haha..

sorry for not updating...

i've gotten really busy

stock taking for F&N, camp facilitator and possibly tuition

meeting new and amazing friends,

keeping in touch with my old buddies,

spending time with the one i love...

i'm wonderfully tired again, and i'm loving it :)

this is how life should be.

2008-12-23T19:23:00.001+08:00

i need PICTURES in this thing.

COLOUR!!

surrender your camera to me.

oh, delete that picture already!

2008-12-23T19:14:00.003+08:00

He saved a man last night, and got his nice shirt dirty.

He tried something new. And i was very happy.

He toasted waffles and ate them with TREE-honey.

He watched finding nemo :)

i love him ❤

back!

2008-12-18T21:29:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD!!

I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT THIS BLOG...

BUT I'VE RETURNED!!

hahahahahaha

but i have nothing to say here.. cause its been a long time of not updating so its actually quite sian to take off from where i left off

basically, As are over!!! thats the main part

dan and i finally turned 18! lol

taiwan was amazing.. really.. the mountains were breathtaking. and we overcame all the obstacles as great friends would

and OMG it snowed!!! lol.. i'll photos up when i get them :)

happy anniversary darling :)
since somehow everyone knows already

i'm meeting miss koh tomorrow! yay........ lol

ok. lazy to update le, have a nice holiday!

2008-10-28T16:38:00.002+08:00

i'm so retarded to have lost lecture 7-9 of my geog notes

one freaking week before my A level paper

yes, someone splash me with ice water

(no please don't)

the library is freaking cold, you know that? Happy birthday, jeri!

2008-09-25T15:56:00.003+08:00

raarr

i'm in the freaking cold school library right now. keep quiet. taking a short break ok?

just gotta say a happy birthday to jeri, whose actual birthday was yesterday.. sorry i couldnt go for the one yesterday, but party on saturday was beyond amazing and i'm still recovering from that. thanks for the invitation!!

sorry peeps, ive got no pictures.. waiting for jeri to post it up actually.. and i wonder who that camera belonged to.. the one where the group of us girls took a picture on the lucious king sized bed. if that person happens to come by to this blog, please leave a message!!! thanks :)

hmmm i dont think i'll be going for anymore consultations that makes me feel embarrassed and as if i'm just wasting the time of the teacher, even though its important to me that i get all the points needed for the question. maybe another tutor will be more understanding...

OMG i must note it here that yesterday, after i came home, i totally knocked out and i can't remember for nuts what i did!!! ooommgg somebody drugged my plain water or something. I HAVE NO RECOLLECTION!! AT ALL!!!

yea so you can just imagine the state i was in when i woke up.. like "its morning already??". yea, CONFUSED is what i was.

to note down abit about my wild saturday at jeri's party at a PRESIDENTIAL SUITE.. omg, it was very very fancy.. daniel came over cause i had a mini clothes crisis to help me out a bit before we cabbed down to shangrila to the valley wing.. then this guy opened the door for us and we were guided to this private lift lobby.. then tushar appeared from the lift! haha in a really smart suit- white vest (yes i call it a vest) and all. lol, and the lift goes directly to the frontdoor of the suite!

not many people were around yet though techinically we were already late. LOL. anyway the night was amazing, the suite had a freaking gym!! and the bathroom was so exquisite. everyone was there.. crenshaw, tushar, chris, sam yan, yan's friend, nikko, casey.... yea and we made quite a few new peeps like kimberly, grace, jewel (i know right? such a pretty name)

chris and tushar brought over their xboxes with guitar hero and all.. the drum thing was spoilt, so whatever.. for the entire night, some people were just glued to those 2 game consoles, seriously.

after the whole thing, the suite was totally trashed, and like the managers were involved. LOL.

haha that makes me wonder how last night went......

anyway, i decided that i shall not be lazy and joined facebook. i dont think i'll be updating much there so actually its pretty pointless! lol.. but whatever, if you've got facebook add me k??

:)

righto. my fingers a going numb.. back to work

Oooo joy.

The Man That Can't Be Moved

2008-09-23T20:23:00.002+08:00

by The Script

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not
I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I've been in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't sit her,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Whos waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There on no hole in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm
Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in backgroung]
So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.
I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

both worlds

2008-09-19T00:22:00.005+08:00

OTHER WORLDS.

fantasy, gothic, dystopia, utopia, dreamscape, numinous.........

i really want both worlds.

that seems quite difficult right now.

but whatever it is, i'm so glad to have you agree to come.

i hate to say this, but i love math.

2008-09-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

the best thing that happened to me this week is surprisingly math.

math used to bring me much agony, confusion, fustration and fear.

now it seems like the only A i can get in prelims.

this week is not the best of weeks.. i think everyone is feeling the pressure now.

flabber-jabber-birthday-deathday-decay-goo

2008-09-16T23:09:00.004+08:00

what a time to update. when i had so much free time at hand, i dont feel like updating, but once the work stuff comes in i feel the need to.

tsk, humans. so CompLex, dont you agree?

i just realised like.. today that its the 16th of september already and tomorrow is the 17th. so fast. doesnt anyone find weird that there's no big news about the 911 event in the 'post 911' years. as in, i didnt even realise that sept 11 just went pass! i suppose its no longer considered 'post 911' anymore.. its sort of become history already. hmmm

or maybe there was some sort of news, just that i didnt read it thats all. haha

for the past month or so, my days are named as"2weeks before prelims" or "9 days before prelims". and now its like "7.5 weeks to A levels"

its like..

A: "eh what day is it today?"
B: "err.. 7.5 weeks before A levels."
OR
B: "math paper 1"

yea.. you catch my drift. thats life for you currently..

the atmosphere today wasnt too good i feel. its a little.. depressing. i dont really like it, but it cant really be helped. any attempt in trying to change these things will just seem pretty superficial and sorta fake and interferring with other people's business. soooo...just....... cheer up peeps. emoing dont do people much good.

i wonder what jeri has planned for her 18th this year... its something to look forward to :)

mummy allows me to go for snow mountain trip!! haha.. YEESSS ok that i'm really glad about. great friends, taiwan in dec, hiking, pitching tents, cooking...... all you need is an amazing bunch of people to make things so freaking interesting. and so far quite alot of us can go!! ^_^

OOMGGG snow mountain...............

i just have to work after that and pay her back.... and earn enough to pay for my bali trip with KOF. haha that one... i havent told her yet. heh heh.

i'm so proud of py and ed!!! they did so well for prelims so far. you guys deserve it. keep up the amazing work!! people, we've only got 2 months left, so this is it!! we can do it! :):):)

yeahh..

step by step.

stop burning bridges you've built.

printing. teacher's day rantings.

2008-09-03T01:57:00.006+08:00

if only i still had small feet...

3min to 2am..

printing printing.. i have a slow printer.

i just had instant noodles. as in, its REALLY instant, no kidding about that. yan bought it from bangkok (before the current turmoil, duh). all you gotta do is to put the noodles and condiments that it comes with into a bowl of sorts, pour hot water, over the bowl, wait 2 min, and then TAH-DAH!! instant noodles!

i wonder how instant noodles can get.. there are these canned soup and noodles vending machines in korea i think. thats the ultimate, if you ask me... for now..

yes, people, PROGRESS. is there an end to it? i don't know.

hello person in the future, reading this, if you have managed to invent a time machine of sorts, come back to the above stated date and say HI to me!! haha but please not so early in the morning, cause i'll be freaked out. really. thanks!!

righty.. printer ran out of paper..

i suppose i should update about the past few days.. there's really nothing much actually...

thursday i watched WALL-E with daniel.. dont ask, daniel wanted to. but it wasnt too bad la, really. walle was quite adorable and funny.. yea, we had a wild time.

then friday was teacher's day.. you know, over the years, the whole getting a gift to appreaciate your teachers thing just wears out of its novelty. not that appreaciating them is not the right thing to do, it is!

but can you imagine? teachers will, year after year, get all sorts of useless crap like bookmarks, cups with 'happy teacher's day printed on them (comes in tens. may be homogeneous in design), flowers, FAKE flowers? (haha), memorabilias, chocolates in tonnes perhaps. haha. it just builds up! and if your teachers have pack-rat syndrome like me, oooohhh my, what a huge problem. at least they can get a sore throat and grow an extra tyre with the chocolates, and real flowers wither.. but think about the space needed to store those cups!!

yea, so if you really love your teachers, dont get them anything. just wish them a happy teacher' day, and if you really mean it, i'm sure it'll be a better gift than helping them mess up their space.

oh, and the performance this year totally sucked. i wasted my entire damn morning for that badly organised crap, the emcees were an accidental (and momentary) hit. And can someone explain to me WHY would anyone offer to perform on stage infront of the entire school when he/she/they are embarrassing with their act? you know why? cause i have no idea.

with the exception of the j2 band and cynthia's group's rip off of okgo's a million ways dance routine, i think the above paragraph applies to everything else. its just my opinion and perhaps just the rest of the entire school, thats all, no offence.

cynthia and friend's version was quite cute. if i'm not wrong, they recieved the loudest applause of all. well done, girl!

and if wasting my entire morning was not enough, they had freaking BALLOONS. and freaking matt kept popping them! grr..

hmmm... must be the late-night-ranting thing working up again.

then sat.. what happened on sat? oh. i did math, had sushi (yum) with daniel and slept

sun? slept

mon? slept (and watched 50firstdates and made pizza with SHARP chedder, which turned out to be quite nauseating cause the crust was all soft and the whole 2 pizzas was too salty. yea)

tuesday? ok yesterday was quite alright. mr glascow had a free slot for us for consultation, organised by jerome :)

tomorrow? haha. i better sleep soon if i want a tomorrow!!

almost done with printing... 2.25am

oh. and my freaking neighbourhood doesnt have a single store that sells italian dressing. i had to walk all the way to holland to get my kick. raawrr.

done! 2.43am... snore...

National day 08 pictures!

2008-08-28T00:28:00.009+08:00

oohhh joy! i can't for tomorrow!

i'm going to take a short one-day-break with my dearest

before we all sink back into the ring-shaped wave pool of never ending sorrow.

OH! here are the pictures from our national day outing.. courtesy of dorville :)

YOU GUYS ROCK MY SOCKS!!

(though i dont really have many.. haha.. i've got one of rod's if that counts! LOL)

Priorities

2008-08-22T19:15:00.006+08:00

wow, 23 visits to my humble blog yesterday.. Chanel is so popular lol

i love my kof and every single one of us in it. i dont know how i would do without you guys. others around us might change, people come and go, but we know we're for life and beyond :)

speaking of life and BEYOND. LOL, if i go before huimin does, i'll come back to visit her and tell her all about the experiences that death brings. she doesnt mind at all! after all, its a once-in-a-life-time experience, and its definitely worth sharing! dont you agree with us? hahaa

my priorities have not changed. though in the past studies may have taken the back seat for some time, i dont forsee that happening very often anymore.

OOHH but food is so hard to resist sometimes!! lol and i cant help but let it take first place :P

hahaha

life is a big game with happiness as main goal, no use brooding over the past. so people, lets stop fretting about the big P and make the most of today!! YES. what a great lease of Life today. i had fun disturbing Jerome (haha :P), trying hard to explain my point about JUSTICE to dorville (even though she's the one that really links everything together and making sense of our shaky points). plus i found the notes on mass movements that yan was talking about last night.

did i mention i had amazing bus luck today? lol, everything went so well today.

ok maybe not everything.. there is ONE thing thats wrong.

MR GLASCOW HAD NO TIME FOR US!!!!!

-_-"" neh neh...

thank goodness for dorville, or our day would have been totally ruined.

oh and its also amazing that my mum is cooking again- and cooking such nice food!

raarrr i'm off to eat. haha, food takes priority now :P:P

My Role Model

2008-08-21T19:26:00.002+08:00

Coco Gabrielle Chanel

Depression

2008-08-19T21:56:00.001+08:00

Symptoms of depression include:

Loss of interest in normal daily activities
Feeling sad or down
Feeling hopeless
Crying spells for no apparent reason
Problems sleeping
Trouble focusing or concentrating
Difficulty making decisions
Unintentional weight gain or loss
Irritability
Restlessness
Being easily annoyed
Feeling fatigued or weak
Feeling worthless
Loss of interest in sex
Thoughts of suicide or suicidal behavior
Unexplained physical problems, such as back pain or headaches

Depression symptoms can vary greatly because different people experience depression in different ways. A 25-year-old man with depression may not have the same symptoms as a 70-year-old man, for instance. For some people, depression symptoms are so severe that it's obvious something isn't right. Others may feel generally miserable or unhappy without really knowing why.

Do YOU suffer from depression? If you do, seek help immediately.

(haha)

you know i'm not talking about you.

2008-08-13T19:57:00.002+08:00

radom facts

i dont approve of it
he said yes
trying not to cry makes my left eye puffy
yay i did population today!
i dont care already

cuteness beyond measure!

2008-08-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

i have nothing i want to say except to go to damien's blog to look at ELMO. omg he's the cutest, no one can measure up to that cute little monster!

hahaa

and albi the racist dragon too.

LOL

total cuteness

and because i'm a total tech retard, you can reach it here!

http://akadamien.blogspot.com/2008/08/for-viewing-pleasure-of.html

Peace in Pursuit.

2008-08-01T18:54:00.005+08:00

YES, i'm selfish

NO, i dont care about it

MY flow, MY views, MY way.

Up till now, its the only way i know how to survive.

You're either With me, or Against me.

this is my general standpoint about my current situation, and does not refer to anyone whatsoever. should there be misunderstandings.
Peace in Pursuit.

happy meal

2008-07-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

yet again i'm here online when i shouldnt be.

i've yet to study for econs test tomorrow and i haven't started my geog essay which is due tomorrow.

i like my macs happy meal.

'free' mass-produced toys are so fun.

i love math, econs and especially geog.

T01 rocks.

share a plate of cut fruits.

soup refills.

........

get serious

2008-07-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

Go away, you freaky stalker.

dear my blog,

2008-07-26T20:17:00.003+08:00

hello my blog. did you miss me?

i've been busy lately.. with geog and math and school..

ok fine, i've been pretending to do work. haha. you know i'm easily distracted.

i'm sorry for neglecting you for so long, you must have felt quite empty.

well not much has changed significantly.. just that peiyi's jospeh is quite new i suppose, and i met him on racial harmony day! lol on that day, shuxian, nicole, sam, victoria and i wore sarees! aggie and char wore jap and chang yong was in chinese. and the guys were so cute in their sarong and singlets.. playing frisbee in the morning. you would have laughed if you saw it! haha

yesterday, KOF met up, and it was so..... hmm.. words will just undermine it.

frisbee this afternoon was pretty exciting. well done cj :) and the golden shoe boy without socks is mine. raawr.

my eyes are tired now, dear blog.

there are things that i'd like to keep to myself and myself only.. and maybe some other people.. too bad for you, i'm not going to tell you what!

haha, ok.. when i get the racial harmony pictures from victoria, i'll post it up here!

talking about pictures..... my camera is spoilt.

yes, blog, weep. for the source of your colour is gone!

:(

sigh.

love, yang.

- blah

2008-07-17T21:56:00.003+08:00

its 4min to 10pm.

these are the things i've yet to do

geog tutorial questions on litho for tomorrow
1 full geog essay to be handed in to mr tay BY TOMORROW
study for econs test tomorrow (firms)

thats only the mandatory things for school.

2min more.

somebody shoot me.

diaryland

2008-07-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

erm. this has nothing to do with this blog, but i felt like changing the blogskin of the older blog to the previous one that it was dressed in before it had the same picture above cause it was so nice and i like it quite alot.

and i just realised that there are only 2 punctuations in the above sentence and its very long.

and so is the one above this.

ok i will stop.

shut up, you are smart.

end of story.

http://ygwi.diaryland.com/

mr lim's bday last friday

2008-07-15T22:28:00.007+08:00

yea yea i've been lazy.

so?

i'll blame it on... nah, i wont and can't blame it on anyone anyway

today, the key that i've been holding i returned to odac. (via mr lim cause no matter how many clues i give to the j1s, they dont seem to get that there are THREE KEYS, and not just 2!!)

haha, byebye store.. you were so neat and tidy. now its going to be destroyed in the hands of the jones...

haha, until they prove me wrong this view stays

AND because i'm too lazy, and i'm not entirely technologically retarded, i'll leave it all to a video to tell a portion of the story of last friday:

Mr lim's 39th birthday!

while the video loaded, here's some quiz off rod's bloggie!

and yanny has been watching japanese serial shows on her laptop and laughing randomly to herself and the screen. if you read this yan, you look really weird.

esp when i'm doing an essay on dreamscapes. yeah.

(LOL)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

yup~

i'm so lazy to type an entry that all you get is a title.

2008-07-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

Czarlet

2008-07-09T22:07:00.004+08:00

ok i lost my chain of thought. wanted to type something here but... OH! haha

lets just say that the gallery is not the best place to sew.

and i think the shirt is SOOOO freaking cute!!!! aaahh

Czarlet is a pretty name. i like it :)

but travis stays. i'll name my girl travis if i have to.. LOL

i'm serious.

2008-07-09T21:52:00.003+08:00

hope is revived

welcome back, my beloved ropes.

negative thoughts before tomorrow comes

2008-07-07T23:45:00.004+08:00

yes, i've been lazy.. to take pictures, that is.

but then again, its not like i'm not lazy in my normal state or to begin with.

so thats all i have to post up. because i'm lazy.

tomorrow or rather, today, is our dooms day. OOOhhh we're getting back our papers, people,

SCARED?? perhaps.

no, not perhaps... ok a little... perhaps.

but fate IS fate yes? once you've given what you can, doesn't matter whether it was your best or not, its done. nothing you can do now, but pray to your invisible God whom you faithfully believe exists will help you somehow, because someone in the course of your life told you so.

but what if God doesn't care? he's got the self-destructing world to think about, he's got to worry about north korea and iran, and he has to grow the grass and make sure the sun still shines. who are you in comparison?

a mere product, a human being, thats been over produced and left idle?

perhaps.

i have no right to say for certain.

am i only saying all these because i know my fate is fixed and there's no way God can help me now? or even if he can, will he abandon me again like he did before?

perhaps.

i dont like perhaps. so i'm taking Control on my own life now, fate is in my hands. and so is yours in your own.

dont be afraid to ask for help. i was too stubbon. but now its different. maybe God will help me now.

Vulgarities

2008-07-07T09:56:00.005+08:00

"asshole."

"why you so vulgar?"

"you're even more vulgar than me!"

"i speak more vulgarities than you to make you look like an angel."

yan is back from taiwan! / alfresco!

2008-07-05T23:15:00.009+08:00

yanny is back from taiwan, and she brought back oodles of goodies!! hahaha.. clothes (which most of them, i dont see myself wearing anytime soon.. taiwan style, you know?).. novelty food.. and a bag i asked for!! haha.. Yaaayyy

(they're really marshmallows)

Oooooo ALFRESCO.

with greatfriends, its always great!

(and after lit..you have no idea)

<-happy utensils!

the once-empty cups of common ice.. just sitting there waiting..

then suddenly, with professional scooper charmaine's amazing abilities..

tah-dah!!

YUMMYY...

Hmmm..
LOL!

hahaha.. great friends..

today.. was the first day of maths tuition for me since.. primary school. yea. primary 6, after mr siregar stopped teaching yan and i cause he doesnt do more than pri school math.

he's still teaching peng and lin english even though they're in sec school.

and there's progess in the dress making!! a conclusion today.

she's finished with one and her workmanship is so so so so good!

if only nicer fabric came in the same price.

hmm-

if we could turn back time,

one week ago.

i dont think i'll change a thing.

some test

2008-07-03T23:06:00.003+08:00

haha.. everyone seemed to be koping this off from somebody else. so i thought i'll just give it a chance! haha and somebody enlighten me.. what the heck is ENFP??

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.

You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.

Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.

You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.

You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

2008-07-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

thanks alot, jerome!!!

geog stuff

2008-07-03T21:47:00.001+08:00

Tutorial 10, Atmospheric Hazards

1) Explain how El Nino events could result in atmospheric hazards. [6m]
2) With regards to possible natural and human causes of drought, which do you think has a greater influence on the creation of drought in an area? Why?
3) A) Describe the changes shown [3m]
b) Explain the reasons for the changes shown [4m]
c) Explain why the formation and paths of tropical cyclones are limited to sub-tropical regions in the world [5m]

Tutorial 11, Microclimates

1) Compare a typical rural surface with a typical city surface. List 2 ways in which the differences adds to the urban heat island effect.
2) Describe the differences in the various climate elements of the urban area as compared to the rural area. Give reasons for these differences.
3) The UHI is said to create ‘country breeze’. How could this happen?
4) Study Figure 2. Describe and explain the variations in temperature as shown in the figure

make math your bitch.

2008-07-02T20:53:00.003+08:00

sudden realisation.

(ok, not realisation)

more like people told me. again.

well. right now, my new answer is yes. or maybe.

i'm falling sick again. sore throat and my stupid nose can't stop running today, and since i havent been running, i couldnt catch up with it :(

yan is coming back tomorrow! though i dont know what time. i can't find the paper that tells me her flight number etc.

i think i'll just go to the airport and wait awhile.. and i dunno.. study somewhere while i'm at it.. maybe..

thanks alot, dorville, for the lesson on poe today. i think (currently, cause i dont know about the future) poe looks quite interesting... cool!

gaarr i dont know what else to say. the anticipation of the papers is killing me.

oh, shuwen dear: ROCKET FUEL!!!

we can do this man..

make math your bitch.

happy birthday sean! peeps of the past.

2008-07-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

happy birthday sean!!

no car, no talk eh?

haha, hope you like it :)

righty. people, i failed math.

whoo hoo..

but fret not, there is still hope. some of you would have known that i've taken a step to help change my current fate. shall not brood on it too long cause things WILL change!

liu wenqiang, you're a smarty pants

"EVERYONE doesnt take H1"

thats cause you're in freaking hwa chong!!!

-_-"

talked to ray last night. OMG he's 23 already.

its been so freakin long.. i'm just glad that everything is back to how it was.. 4 years ago? haha

yea.. back to spontaneous conversations online,

even though he has to realise i'm no longer that little girl he used to talk to. LOL.

ohh the peeps of the past that are around, how heartwarming :)

i would have posted up the pictures from our movie-dinner outing, but dear daniel did something to them. too bad, people, no pics!

get smart was really funny.

and i dont feel like typing anymore.

not-so-secret secret mission

2008-06-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

oh yes, i must say

on friday morning, ten of us met at the grandstands at 9+ for some secret mission! hahaha (ok, its not so secret now..)

shuxain
dorville
fang hui
rod
marcus
eugene lim
jethro
kannan
eugene tan
me!

sadly, i didnt bring my camera along. so i couldnt document that part of my day down - sorry rod, adventures must include pictures! i'll bring it tomorrow if we're going for the movie thing :):)

anyway, mr lim appeared with this white van and prashan drove it up the hill backwards with the backdoor still open!!! omg i was so shocked. but everything was alright in the end.

everyone hopped into the stuffy white van and mr lim drove us to this place near school. its his auntie's house! (or something) anyhow, we helped to move some stuff from the 2nd story to the van.

its so nice to sit around on the steps afterwards, just the 10 of us... sharing (expensive) drinks bought from the 7-eleven nearby and talking about totally random things.

after that, we walked back to school (since it was so near), for our prize winner's photo taking thing by the track.

and oh my gosh, our tropies were stolen!!!!! like wth -_-" whoever wanted it, can just ASK us or something, we could have just lent it to you for awhile.. no need to steal it from the office.

but we dont really know the reason for its disappearance. it was in the school's general office after our morning prize presentation, and then from there.... it was gone without a trace.

DUN DUN DUN Duunnnn....

freaky freaky.

dorville gave us a lit lesson on edgar allen poe's works.. we're to do it when school resumes, so this lesson was seriously useful. THANKS ALOT, DORVILLE!!

i dont think i'll ever be as good a senior as dorville is.

(too bad, jones.. haha just kidding)

Only you will know.

2008-06-29T18:35:00.007+08:00

When time comes, we all will see,
entranced by each other's gaze
A glow next to the moonlight
relishing in near perfect darkness

Etching a design so beautiful
no one else can see
On smooth porcelaine and inside
lingers, the pain of the process

Only you will know
never giving up too easily
Giving new meaning to love
Everlasting is our fate

Reigning Fear intrudes but ultimate
victory goes to the one above
Its okay, no worries- the
rights are all yours

Giving into destiny
in approval of the smiling moon
never again will i question, as
solid is our affections

the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress (parts III, IV & V)

2008-06-29T17:04:00.012+08:00

is it a bird?

is it a plane?

....

oh you know the rest..

its The adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress!

part III, IV & V

part III

welcome back to the adventures of the bored girl sufering from post-exam stress part III. in this episode, yang updates about the dress making process that has been going on for the past few days

well. little progress. yang's mother has been procrestinating in the dress making process (ok, fine, she's been busy with other things)

so the dramatic tension builds up..

HOW will the dress turn out?

tune in to find out.

Part IV

yesterday, yang met up with 2 of her bestest best friends of the KOF at courts, tampines, to support a friend NIKKO AW (brown dress) in her quest to become..

Miss Singapore Sweetheart 2008!!

(funny name for a pagent title, but its not too bad)

shuwen and huimin had hotdogs from the ikea next door while cheering at high pitched tones in support of nikko in the next leg of the race in the semi-finals.

nathan had done up some cute cheer-cards, each with a letter of nikko's name, while huimin, shu and yang helped to hold. along with nathan's supportive army mates.

in between nikko and the results were angsty SPGs (yang just learnt the meaning of SPG, haha), girls with dress that yang, shu and min fear will slide off, and ok.. some pretty contestants

nikko, in yang's opinion, has a high chance of getting the title :)

Part V

as mentioned in yang's previous blog entry, she felt like going to the beach.

on friday, her wish was granted!

note to yang:

a carls jr meal must be shared.

and so.. the adventures continue...

the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress (part II)

2008-06-26T20:16:00.013+08:00

Is it a bird?

Is it a plane?

No!

The adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress!!!

part II

well in today's episode, yang woke up at 1130am. she was suppose to meet daniel at 11.30am for lunch. but NNNOooOOoo she had to wake up late! so her poor boyfriend had to have lunch alone. and she would like him to know that she's very sorry. sorry :(

as she left her last entry on her blog hungry, and so was her house-hopping grandma, she proceeded downstairs purchase some chicken rice for her and zap-chai-beng for herself.

as the time passes slowly, she decided to head on to.. well..

toys'r'us

for.. err.. something.

heh.

as she timed her schedule perfectly, the bus came immediately and she proceeded to travel toward school, where she met up with daniel, after his chinese paper to go de-stress abit before

his next trial tomorrow afternoon!

the infamous pasar malam!!

such cute bottles. dan and yang loved them. oh and of course the ramly and tutu too.

(lol, tutu too)

and yes.. that sums up the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress, in her journey to find back herself and her lost social life.

till the next test and exam...

2008-06-26T12:08:00.003+08:00

righteo, i'm suppose to be at tp now having lunch with daniel............................ but i woke up at the time we're suppose to meet. heh. sorry dear.

anyway, today is a brand new day!!

yan's going to taiwan tonight!!

and my mum................. she hasn't started on the dress yet. hmph.

i'm hungry. BRUNCH!

the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress

2008-06-25T21:02:00.006+08:00

Is it a bird?
Is it a plane?
No!

its the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

one fine day after her mid-year exams, yang decided to go on a little adventure in her little home country named singapore.

after running an errand for her mother, by going to pay her lil sis's course fees at queenstown, yang travels all the way to bugis with no map whatsoever, looking for her destination - arab street- for she hears that cheap cloths abound that treasure-troved street.

getting lost, for she has gone toward the wrong direction after emerging from the tunnel that a long and tiring train ride led her to, she feels.. well.. tired. but thankfully! a bottle of water appeared out of nowhere in her magical black bag.. ohh she was thankful for that.

stumbling around with only traces from past memories of arab street, she finally saw.....

oh the joy! proceeding to arab street..

where it indeed, is filled with cloth shops bartering treasures of rich silk and cotton linen.. however, to her dismay, the high prices that soar sky high!

disappointed, she used her contacting device to consult her mother back home who adviced her to head on to paya lebar, to a place called golden mile complex (she thinks) at joo chait road. there, she said, will i find what i want - cheap and beautiful cloth.

now at this point of yang's journey, you must be wondering what she needs this cloth for. the answer is that its for a dress that her mother wishes to make. or attempt to. hah.

so towards paya lebar she goes, back to the tunnel!

hopping off the train, once again, but at another time and space, the weather was scorching hot! and she was dying from a near heat stroke. the only solution was to find ice cream!

it was then that she realised how amazing soya bean ice cream was.

Mmmmm.. amazing.

anyway, she got her cleap cloth and went home.

the end.

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haha i got bored.

anyway i got mistaken for a malay again cause the shop uncle started talking to me in malay. sigh.. its ok.. deep inside i know i'm all chinese..

and i swear i saw ray at holland. he's still as round as ever and his girlfriend doesnt seem too bad. well i suppose everyone's satisfied with their lives now. stacey has johnathan, and she's really happy and all..

and everyone has forgotten about the past.. chaos. i think thats the most important part

oh and i saw richard, chris's older brother with his girlfriend.

oohh lonely me :(

haha. dont get me wrong, i love exploring alone, but sometimes i'd rather not.

and i forgot to post yan's birthday cake pictures! there's no pictures of her here though, cause she doesn't "look glam". hmm ok

too bad, you only get cake!! its delicious, i tell you.. hazelnut flavoured chocolate. its called the chocolate grateu or something from bengawan solo!

now doesn't that make you hungry?

post-mid yr

2008-06-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

now that mid-yrs is over and i have given myself some time for a break, it doesnt feel right at all! ooohhh the great ironies of life.

its like.. i had dinner, washed the dishes and stuff.. then i almost automatically wanted to go to my corner of the house (haha) to study under my crappy table lamp! its become some sort of a habit now.. but i'm actually forcing myself not to study for awhile.

to break the cycle, i went swimming. like i said, exams made me fat.

i want to go to the beach.

maybe i should get some sleep to make up for the lost hours esp in the past week. its really taking a toll on my responses.

chalet june 08

2008-06-24T21:36:00.003+08:00

photo from the chalet! thats everyone :)

i tell you. exams made me f-----a-----t.

bye bye my beloved ropes

2008-06-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

ok. here's the shit.

for lit, nobody will ever know what goes right or wrong, esp the unseen which i totally crapped.

for geog... well...SIGH..

lets just say i can forget about ropes level 3..

wow! its now possible! lol

2008-06-21T20:09:00.001+08:00

omg i just had a revelation!

with yan's (amazing) laptop...

i can finally appear online on msn with her online at the same time when we're both at home together!

cool...

June babies

2008-06-21T12:13:00.003+08:00

haha i'm back using yan's laptop.. its just so convenient cause its just like.. 2m away from my slumber pad. lol. i'm such a lazy ass right now

ok, reminder reminder: sean chua's birthday is on the 30th of june and he doesnt want a chocolate cake.

(that weirdo.. who doesnt like a chocolate cake?)

i tell you.. june is like the peak month for babies to arrive or something cause i know like a whole bunch of people born in this very month! ok lets see...

peng

amanda

lynn kou kou

uncle david
sarah chng
sean chua

like i said, sean, i'm seriously broke.

and SHHHhhh dont tell yan.. but i really want to get her that perfume thing she wanted.. but ive got no cash!! (paid for june xp already.. ) haha, so if you read this yan.. err.. dont expect anything.. but its the thought that counts right? hehe

wow its... 85 bucks.. O_O sorry yan, no chance now

but what a pretty bottle.........

sigh....

Yan's brand new laptop

2008-06-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

wow.. this laptop is seriously damn cool.. its a sony vaio and its in my favourite colour-RED!

hahaha.. she's at camp now, and this laptop is taking up my usual study spot.

LOL.. and look! there's a camera in this laptop!! sadly i dont think i know how to function it yet so.... i shall not try. plus, something is wrong with the light in my room.. its kinda.. not working

yea the room is in a huge mess.. we're currently trying to shift things around the room.. yan had been getting new stuff and trying to get rid of the old to make way for the new

i'm suppose to get a rug -_-"

you can thank yan for her ideas of a perfect room..

i suppose i'd like one like what she is imagining.. a nice place to read my stuff.. condusive for studying, and just a place i'd atually look forward to coming 'home' to... i'm just a little lazy to help you, yan :P haha, but i'll look out for that rug you asked for

damn, this wireless is freaking fast!

maybe daddy will get me a laptop when i get into uni...... *hint hint*? haha its not like you remember we ever existed anyway. effectively its been more than 2 years already.. ANYWAY, moving on..

lit paper was today!! OMG you dont know what TRAUMA i went through last night because.... DUM DUM DUM Duuuummmmm... i dont have an exam copy of great ex!! AHhh!! so i was online last night at about 1.30am hoping that roderrick is online or something so i can like.. ask if i could borrow it.. but no! he's not online! (which i found out he was 'appearing offline' -__-"")

ok, thats exaggerating it.. oddly, i wasnt worried at all.. and when i dont feel worried, it naturally means that everything would turn out alright (some how.. i dont know, yan would say its the grace of God... maybe...) anyway, i slept well and woke up, went to school and indeed! all was solved within 2min!!

haha, i was with jolene and we met mr glascow on the way to the exam hall and with him is a copy of great ex!!! hahaha.. ALL IS WELL AGAIN!!

and thank goodness (and mr glascow) too! cause i used it to quite a huge extent for my essay

so yes. the exam itself. the handmaid's tale/brave new world section is so totally screwed and i've lost all hope in scoring for that so... i hope the does not mean i'll fail the entire paper- that'll be so depressing.

i just hope that all will be well, and not turn out to be that the subject that i spent the least time on scoring better that the one i've spent eternaty on

this laptop is seriously the ultimate.

yesterday..

the family gathering/birthday bbq in the evening was really heartwarming.. my grandma was so happy, you could really see :) she's getting her bionic legs on the 25th this month.. lol..

and, being the last to arrive, i was expected to finish all the food.. cause you know how it works, those that started out first will be like "save for the last person", and that last person is me!

happy birthday Lynn kou kou, uncle david, peng and yan!! haha :):)

righto..i've got to study for the next 2 exams coming up in like.. well.. after 2 short days!!!

yesterday.. haha, yesterday.. well, how could i resist?

❤17

2008-06-19T08:50:00.001+08:00

it been 6 months and

you know we're still crazy

❤17

GET THINGS DONE!!

2008-06-14T20:41:00.009+08:00

i need to get out of this place.

nothing much is being done here..

i will get out tomorrow, drag myself if i have to.

too much is at stake, and wasting time most definitely NOT the way to go.

i just want to get this over and done with

(very very very well, of course)

then we can all go places, like we did 2 decembers ago, and take random pictures of us and of life as it is around us.

wouldn't that be perfect?

Happy birthday dora

2008-06-14T00:17:00.004+08:00

i'm back from june xp and all i can say is that it was amazing and that i'm so so so so grateful for my great friends (and friends of great friends, of course)

will elaborate another day when i have pictures to do most of the talking for me

i'm so tired now.. didnt do ANY work at all today, and that really bad.

but spent quality time with great friends and KOF+berna

happy 18th birthday, dora

going for june xp!

2008-06-06T18:11:00.000+08:00

off to the mountains again!

be back thursday :)

VINDICATED

:\

haha

17 again

decisions.

butterflies, butterflies, we were meant to fly :)

oh be still, my heart!

'liquid paper'

bubble tea!!

crazy.

i have decided

I'm going to see the world!!! :))))

maybe?

with the passing of time..

:)

while printing my hope dress pattern.. haha how ironic.

i like wednesdays

no expectations

self talk leads to great revelations.

we're all dying

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break!

using the ironing board as a table... haha i'm desperate!

....

wow, there's a title thing. lol i forgot! can i not title it? i can't think of anything right now.

revival? maybe..

wonderfully tired again :)

happy 20th b'day yan! ....... cya soon dorville...

to be read again next may 20

Dear Cosmos

all you need is love

I love kids

busy busy busy!

ZOO with KOF

friendly people

WHOO!!

little pieces make up a whole

the old man

resuscitating you, blog!

an almost mirror image

101th post

things ive owed

Second Valentines

manicure

four views

i'm loving it

oh, delete that picture already!

back!

the library is freaking cold, you know that? Happy birthday, jeri!

The Man That Can't Be Moved

both worlds

i hate to say this, but i love math.

flabber-jabber-birthday-deathday-decay-goo

printing. teacher's day rantings.

National day 08 pictures!

Priorities

My Role Model

Depression

you know i'm not talking about you.

cuteness beyond measure!

Peace in Pursuit.

happy meal

dear my blog,

- blah

diaryland

mr lim's bday last friday

i'm so lazy to type an entry that all you get is a title.

Czarlet

negative thoughts before tomorrow comes

Vulgarities

yan is back from taiwan! / alfresco!

some test

geog stuff

make math your bitch.

happy birthday sean! peeps of the past.

not-so-secret secret mission

Only you will know.

the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress (parts III, IV & V)

the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress (part II)

the adventures of the bored girl suffering from post-exam stress

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